Tuesday, September 8, 2009

My Big Sister


Tamra Kaye Chapman
June 26, 1964 - September 4, 2009
I am not able to put into words all the thoughts running through my mind. The thoughts running through my heart are even more tangled. I have countless memories of my oldest sister. Too many to count. Some too precious to share.
Tami was diagnosed with breast cancer 13 years ago. She fought it. About 11 and 1/2 years ago it had spread to her lungs, then her brain. She fought it. 5 months ago she found another lump in her breast. She fought it. She fought and fought until her poor tired beautiful body could no longer withstand the treatment. Still she fought. It was not until her husband Mark told her it was OK to stop fighting that she passed away.
I honestly had no idea how terrible it would feel to see her succumb to this horrible disease. My heart aches for her husband and children. My heart aches for our mother. My heart aches for my kids who loved their Aunt Tami so.
My heart aches.
2 Timothy 4:7
I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:
This scripture describes perfectly my sister. I miss her terribly.
I thank my Father in heaven for providing a way for me to return to him. Where I will be greeted by my grandmother, father, and now my big sister. Who forever has blazed the trail for the rest of the family, the first to do everything.

8 comments:

Buffy said...

Trisha I have thought about you and your family alot this weekend! I'm sooo sorry for your loss! Know that I love you and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

The MacQueens said...

We are so sorry to hear about your sister. We are thinking of you & praying that you will have the comfort that you & your family need.

Sarah R. said...

I cannot even imagine how you must be feeling right now. I wish we lived closer so that we could do something for you. Let me know if there's anything at all we can do.

Laura said...

Trisha- Your post about your sister is so touching. I was hear broken when I heard of your her passing. Death is never an easy thing to deal with, as you well know. Know that you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers, we love you.

My name is Andrea said...

I'm so sorry, Trisha. Know that you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am so grateful for our knowledge of eternal families!

Wendy said...

Wow, Trisha. How can you be so moving and poignant in the middle of something so tragic? You're an inspiration. Can't even imagine how I'd deal with losing my sister. Thank you for your post on her and the reminder to cherish each moment. My heart is with you right now.

Sara's Memoirs said...

trisha, that was beautiful. your thoughts are so touching. thanks for sharing that. my heart goes out to you and all your wonderful family. i wish i could give you just the biggest hug right now. i just pray that your heart will be comforted and peace will fill you up very very soon. xoxo

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i check in to your blog all the time and love all the fun happy things i see. sorry you are dealing with sadness right now. you are an example to all of us of your testimony of the plan of salvation. i will say a prayer for you and your family. your sister is rejoicing in heaven with all your loved ones. sending thoughts and prayers your way <3